Be Yourself sweetie :)

stop. you have one life. your not living if your not happy

stop

Feel you man, every inch.. every scar!! (*= applies to me)
my family:
they are judgmental (*)
loud(*)
obnoxious(*)
and at times very rude and hateful(*)-----get smartaleck comments on why can't u just be 'normal'??

my real personality:
i've always been considered goth (me=not goth, but weird, a bit eccentric...love dark colors)
im quite(there isn't much i have to say because i prefer to remain in my thoughts)----feel u man!...love getting lost in my imagination!
im not good with people no matter how much i try----me=can be social, but choose no to be....fear of being judged by others, like my family has done to me
im very intelligent---- yeah, pal... love math, by any chance??
im artistic and im fascinated with philosophy and the bible (in LOVE with art & philosophy, interested in nature of reality... not so much the Bible, but truth itself... would like to exchange creative ideas, one day??)
i like to observe the things and people around me----yes! yes! as though i were an outside observer seeing how a play unfolds before my eyes.


my fake personality:
i don't associate with people my family would not approve of (i still do, but without my family knowing, of course)
i talk alot (usually just about random things they'd be interested in)---- do u just feel u have to talk because that's what is expected, so therefore you talk to look less 'strange' & avoid judgment?? has happened to me.... & i hate it!
i do what they do-----yes!... i used to pretend to, at least


should i continue this or stop-----STOP, my friend......i did get a lot of opinions from my family and hurtful comments on why the hell was i so strange, but they got USED to it...as a matter of fact... my mother finds it 'strange' when i am not strange... my family is opinionated (fact of life).... opinionated people always have opinions(duh!)... their nature, nothing against, friend

P.S. this life is all about self-discovery... LIVE, DISCOVER your true self.. for something gorgeous will flourish.. not worth living someone else's life....