my family does not like me for who i really am, so for years now i've been "re-creating" a fake personality until there is one they can approve of. currently im 15 and have been doing this since i was 8 yrs old.

my family:
they are judgmental
loud
obnoxious
and at times very rude and hateful

my real personality:
i've always been considered goth
im quite(there isn't much i have to say because i prefer to remain in my thoughts)
im not good with people no matter how much i try
im very intelligent
im artistic and im fascinated with philosophy and the bible
i like to observe the things and people around me

my fake personality:
i don't associate with people my family would not approve of
i talk alot (usually just about random things they'd be interested in)
i do what they do


should i continue this or stop

you should stop. You're just like me. Well, I'm not really goth. My friends just told me that I am because they caught me writing a poem about death. I like keeping secrets and I do not really want to talk about simple things with people. I'm not a very sociable person. I don't a lot of friends and I don't talk to them very much. What can I say? I topped my whole batch in my rank in academics. We have the same personality. You should stop faking it otherwise, you are going to break. I seem so happy around people but I feel like I'm going to cry. You should explain to your family what you really are. Be strong because you can't let your life go on like this forever

Stop trying to be what your clearly not. In the end life is what makes you happy.
Just be yourself. Your family would accept you as who you really are eventually. They are your family after all.

very slowly change to who you really are. if they ask why you are changing, then tell them that you have been hiding your true self but be gentle and maybe throw in a few tears.